Setting: Outside of 200 Building, FDTC Main Campus

Date of Update: December 1, 2010

Professor: Alan Trusky

Today’s Date: December 2, 2010

Introduction: This is an update of an update.

Main Update: On my way to English class, I was walking towards the 200 building. That is where my class is. Mr. Trusky was outside finishing his cigarette and he saw me and said hello. He asked how I was doing, I replied that I was well and asked how he was. There was a moment of small-talk before he got down to why he really wanted to talk to me. He said that I am a very smart woman who always answers questions intelligently. He asked why I don’t speak in class more often. I said, “I don’t speak publicly.” He asked me why, he said, “Are you shy?” I said that I was terrified. He told me that I shouldn’t be terrified of speaking publicly because I am an intelligent young woman.

I was tempted to tell him that I am not as smart as I seem. I just have excellent reading, writing, and research skills.

End of Update

Setting: English class

Date of Update: November 29, 2010

Professor: Alan Trusky

Today's Date: November 30, 2010

Introduction: I consider myself a shy person. I do not enjoy talking in front of a large group. I do not enjoy walking up to someone I don't know and starting a conversation. I do not enjoy calling to make appointments.  All of these things and many more public situations terrify me.  I do not speak out in classes unless it is a topic I am very passionate about or I am spoken to directly by the teacher.

Main Update: In English class yesterday, we were having a discussion about some of the more prominent women (authors) in American History.  We were discussing the feminist act.  Many of the females in my class had a lot to say on the matter.  Mr. Trusky stated his point of view and I nodded my head in agreement, just as he looked at me.  He saw me nod my head in agreement and he said, "Lorrie, Do you have something to say? I know you have to have some opinion on this?" I looked at him, terrified, and I said, while shaking my head, "No, I don't!"  He giggled and smiled at me and said, "She's so cute."

Later in the class Mr. Trusky said that one other girl and I must have signed a pact at the beginning of the semester saying that we would never talk in class. She and I are the only two people that have never joined in the discussion.  It is nothing against Mr. Trusky or any other teacher. I just don't talk a lot in public situations. I'm a very, very shy individual.

End of Update

[	Location	|	Library	]
[	Mood	|	moody	]
[	Music	|	bleh	]

It’s not even noon yet & already I’m having a rough day.

Keys fell out of my pocket this morning when I got home from taking my nephew to school. I did not hear them fall out… so, I locked my car & got out.

So, running late for school, I was also running all over my house trying to find my keys. When I realized they were in my car, I started crying. Luckily, my room mate was home & he was able to drive me to school.

UGH.

How was your day?

[	Location	|	library	]
[	Mood	|	calm	]
[	Music	|	none	]

just want to say congrats to Will&Sarah. they did it. something no one thought they ever would. they got married. i'm still not sure how i feel about the situation. old feelings getting stirred up. just gotta give it some time and let things settle down. don't get me wrong, i'm happy for the two of them. everyone deserves a happy ever after... i just pray to God that Will gets his. he's been through a lot with this girl and I hope that she doesn't mess everything up again. i've heard that she's changed a lot and that things will be better. i just hope its true. he deserves it. he deserves to be happy, everyone does. & if things get screwed up again, well... i don't really know what i'll do. i'm in another relationship now & its way better than mine & Will's relationship (if thats even what it was). i'm happy with this person & i want to spend forever with them. but, its hard to forget people you once cared about like that... anyway, i'm making myself depressed. ugh.

so, things are going good at the new house. getting along great with the roommates... i knew i would. rosa and i shared a freaking bedroom for two damn years. we survived that, i think we can survive sharing a house where we can separate and go into different rooms and not be around each other 24 hours 7 days out of the week. 

yesterday we carved pumpkins. it was fun & stressful & fun. mine is Jack Skellington. gonna finish it up today. painting it white to make it look better. should be pretty sweet. 

anyway, i'm off to do some school work.

<3

[	Location	|	library	]
[	Mood	|	content	]
[	Music	|	the clicking of keyboards & somewhere a baby cried	]

Friday, October 1st: Birthday Celebrataion.

It was sooo much fun. My friends and I went to cici's for dinner. I got me some macaroni pizza. MMM. After the pizza, we had some Iron Man birthday cake. yummy. OH! and Brandon got me a Rem plushie! sooo cute.

After that, we headed on over to the movie theater where we watched Let Me In. It was a pretty decent movie. At least I enjoyed it. It wasn't as scary as I'd hoped for, but it was a good movie none the less. After the movie we all hung out in the parking lot and ate more cake for like at least a half hour. That was the funnest part. After that, Brandon came home with me & we watched Disney's Peter Pan and then went to bed.

Saturday, October 2nd: Packing Day.

Saturday afternoon, Brandon and I woke up and I made him watch the most amazing movie to ever be made. Taintlight... Yes, you heard me. Then we pretty much just packed up all my clothes and stuff and then watched more movies the rest of the day. We had a mini-Tim Burton fest. It was fun. We basically just hung around the house all day.

Sunday, October 3rd: Moving Day.

Brandon, my dad, and I spent most of the afternoon moving my stuff into my new house. Yessir, I no longer live with my parents. It didn't take us very long to get everything moved. I guess it has mostly to do with the fact that all my stuff was already boxed up from when we moved into my parent's new house. When we got there, I knew I'd be moving out soon, so I didn't really unpack anything. So, we got all my stuff into the new house & then me & Brandon went grocery shopping for shampoo and things of that nature. After that, we went back to Brandon's house for dinner & just hung out and stuff until I went back home. I'm a big boy now. With bills and everything. YAY! lol.

Monday, October 4th: Happy Birthday to me.

Didn't do a whole lot on my actual birthday. My first official day in my new house =]. Woke up. Went to school. Carli came over to help me unpack a little bit. I made her lunch. She and I hung out for most of the day. Then, she had to go home, so I headed over to my parents house. They invited me over since it was my birthday and what not. They made me dinner. Had me some birthday cards. Ate some cake. Watched Bones & House, M.D.

& that's pretty much it. <3

[	Location	|	Living Room - desktop	]
[	Mood	|	excited	]
[	Music	|	"Broken Angel" Hanson	]

Realization:

1. I've come to realize that my hair: never stays the same color for too long.

2. I've come to realize that when I talk: I sound like I'm southern... I wonder why?

3. I've come to realize that when I love someone: I love hard.

4. I've come to realize that I need: money.

5. I've come to realize that I've lost: a lot of friends since graduating high school.

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when: things don't work out the way i want them to..

7. I've come to realize that money: is something i dont have a lot of.

8. I've come to realize that most people: are ignorant.

9.I've come to realize that I'll always: trust people too easily.

10. I've come to realize that I love spending time: Brandon, Roberto & sweet pea.

11. I've come to realize that the last time I cried: was drug-induced.

12. I've come to realize that my cell phone: needs to be upgraded.

13. I've come to realize that my friends: are all gay/lesbian/bisexual.

14. I've come to realize that when I go to sleep at night: I sleep in funny positions..

15. I've come to realize that right now I'm thinking about: David Bowie.

16. I've come to realize that the first thing I do when I get on Facebook: is nothing. I don't get on facebook.

17. I've come to realize that today: is the day of my birthday party.

18. I've come to realize that tonight: will be the best night of my life.

20. I've come to realize that I'll never be: a genius like Dr. Spencer Reid.     <- stolen answer from RxK because it was too epic to change.


Honesty:

1. Will you answer every question honestly?
With the best of my ability..

2. Have you ever stayed up all night drunk or high?
I got high on accident one time.  Air freshner fights FTW.

3.Have you ever punched anyone in the face?
Yes.

4. Do you miss anything or anyone?
Yes.

5. What makes you laugh no matter what?
Brandon.

6. Have you kissed anyone on the lips in the past five hours?
No.

7. Who was the last person you talked to and what did you talk about?
Carli. Spanish homework.

8. What do you dislike at the moment?
Nothing. I'm pretty happy right now.

9. Name one of your friends who is most like you.
I have a lot in common with all of my friends... but, we also have a lot of differences. We're all nerds in our own ways.

Personal:

1. Do you get butterflies around the people you like?
Yes.

2. Do you think its bad to have sex at your age?
I think it's bad to have meaningless sex at my age. I believe in waiting for someone special.

3. Will you get married?
Hopefully.

4. Will you be doing drugs in the future?
Prescription drugs maybe. But, not for the purpose of getting high.


Very Personal:

1. Are you happy with yourself?
A lot happier than I used to be.

2. Would you change yourself for the person you love?
If they loved me, they wouldn't ask me to change.

3. When did you last cry?
Few nights ago.

4. Do you believe in religion?
I believe in God & Jesus. I don't believe in church.

5. What's currently on your mind?
Macaroni pizza.


Scandals:

1. Have you ever done bad things with your parents nearby?
Not that I can think of.

2. Have you ever started a horrible rumor about somebody?
No.

3. Did you ever fail the school year?
No.

5. Do you think your future will be a good one?
I hope so.


Deep Thoughts:

1. Do you think you were raised well?
I do. My mother and father taught me how to be a good person. I know what is right from wrong & am well educated because of them.

2. Do you have a secret you've never told anyone?
No.  There are at least two people I can think of who know everything there is to know about me.

3. How do you handle stress?
I'm a musician, a writer, and an artist. My stress gets relieved through all three of those mediums.

4. How would you spend your last day alive?
In the bed with my love.

5. Do you hide things well or do you have a guilty conscience?
My conscience is my worst enemy.

6. If your parents got divorced who would you pick to live with mom or dad?
Seeing as how starting tomorrow, I'll be living in my own house... neiter.


Love:

1. Do you know when you're in love?
Yes.

2. The last time you kissed someone:
That's classified.

3. What's the most important part of a relationship in your opinion?
Communication. & with that comes honesty. If you're communicating lies... then, whats the point of trying?

4. If your parents didnt like the person you're dating would you lose them?
No.


Random:

1. Do you spend time with the same people always?
Yes. Brandon, Roberto, & she knows who she is.

2. Do you think best friends can be replaced?
No. True best friends are for life. Brandon & I have been best friends since the day we met & we will stay that way until the day we die.

3. Are you the type that would rather stay at other people's houses or have them at yours?
Depends on my mood. Usually people stay at my house, but if I'm tired of being in the house, I'll go stay with someone else.

4. When was the last time you were truly happy with your life?
Right now.

5. Where was your default picture taken?
On myspace? Brandon's room.

6. Do you think long distant relationships are ever really worth it?
If it is love.

7. What is your favorite color?
It changes with my mood. I really love Red, Green, & black.

8. What do you do when you have a bad day?
Sleep.

9. Do you really think that exes can be "just friends?"
Yes. It's funny, the only one I'm still friends with is the person that was the hardest to get over. It was the nasiest breakup ever.

10. Who messaged you last?
Classified information.

11. When was the last time you told someone you loved them.
Just a few minutes ago.

12. If you could pack up and leave your whole life would you?
No.

13. Do you fall for people easily?
I fall in like easily. I do not fall in love easily.

14. Are you quick to start a fight?
No.

15. Do your parents really know you?
Mostly.

16. Any lyrics stuck in your head?
"Little angel, gotta learn to fly. Get up and earn your wings tonight. Little angel, just look in my eyes. Get up and earn your wings tonight." - Hanson "Broken Angel"

17. Are you tired?
Not really, woke up about two hours ago.

18. Any friends you'd like to tell how much you appreciate them?
They already know.

19. Last time you walked farther than a block?
Every frackin day at school.


Off The Wall:

1. What curse word do you use the most?
Damn?

2. Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep?
No.

3. When was the last time you had starbucks?
Oh hell, a long ass time ago.

4. Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
Probably.

5. When will you next kiss someone?
=].

6. Ever cry in public?
Yes, it's embarrassing as all hell.

7. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
Yes. Sooooo bad.

8. Whats the weather like?
Nice. Cool.

9.Would you ever date anyone covered in tattoos?
Tattoos are hot.